Water for Elephants.
Water For Elephants by Matt Greiner – 10/20/11
Have you ever felt loved in suffering? Is it surprising that a God who desires love first desired to love us? Jesus was sent into the world to serve in the greatest act of compassion ever known to the world as we know it. I think it’s in compassion that love finds it’s truest face.
There is something in my head and my heart that is anxious to love a girl in the same way I’ve been loved. I believe that the love I’ve freely received from Christ prepares and even encourages me to freely love the Miss of my future. There’s something inside of me that wants to set her free. There’s something that’s a part of me that won’t stop looking until God says, ‘she is for you, she is perfect.”
It’s in the end that the getting there finds its value. It’s in the end that the waiting finds its worth. It won’t be enough for me to find a house in anything but my home. I have to wait. I feel it in every part of me and it’s pushing out the pressure and inviting in more patience.
There is always one way in which two people meet. Can I believe that my God is a God who sets a lovers love in motion?
With this same heart on this same bus will I love you. I give myself away in actions and reactions. I get built up and cut down. I win and I lose. But it’s all about the end. Everything comes down to the day I bow before Greatness, leaving your hand for His.
I find myself, today, a man I hoped I’d be one year ago. And for that I shake hands with Grace. My Jesus is faithful, I fail Him time and time again. The places I’ve committed to not falling short, I’ve fallen off. The places I swore I wouldn’t revisit, I’ve in-fact revisited as if I were finding permanence there. But I’ve been finding my feelings for you, Miss, in seeing the realities of love and pain, compassion and pride.
My hope is in you. All my hope is in you. I may walk away time and time again. But to you I will return, time and time again.
And finding myself on a bus overseas, from Germany to Sweden, I realize my responsibility to remember my past so I can create my future. God, take away the fantasy. Give me Love instead.
Pray this prayer:
“In you oh Lord I trust all of myself. I believe you are the beginning and the end. And I believe that you began a good work in me and will continue it until it is finished. Please begin the relationship of my future. Please guide the relationship of my present. Please redeem the relationship of my past. Please guide my heart. “
