(Everything is just a dream)

I'm gonna talk about a little bit of everything...well accept suicide.

About 5-6 months ago my math tutor starting sexually assualting me. He convinced me that I was the only one he needed and he would always give me compliments and tell me I was beautiful and that I was sooo pretty and that he would never forget me. This story is double-sided. You see I also have a sex addiction, so that made it that much harder to stop seeing him. Inside of me I really did want to stop because I was hurting not only the people I love the most but myself. I started having depression, I started cutting...right now as I watch myself type I can see the faint outline of my most recent "work of art." It's of a heart, I cut a heart because at that time him and I were fighting. I finally told someone what he was doing to me on this last Thursday...I live in a small small town so there is nowhere I can hide.Right now he is in jail and I will never see nor talk to him again, and he has lost his teaching degree for the rest of his life. I'm trying to put a brave face on and hold my head up high, but my confidence is skyrocketing down and I feel like I need someone to fill that again.....I just feel alone. If anyone out there has had something like this happen to them I am asking to please contact me, I would love to talk to someone that could understand what I am going through.  Just know that you are not alone out in this big world. Talk.