i don't really know anymore

A while ago my dad and i were fighting alot. it would very rarely get physical but i was still scared. i'd made a spot in the back of my closet behind my clothes where nobody coulf find me. i felt like that was the only place to get away. i'd always call my pastor since i felt she was the only one i could talk to. we'd go out for lunch within the net couple of days to talk about it. we haven't done that in a while because he hasn't lashed out in a while. i figured it was some sort of "phase" he just passed. i guess not. we've been fighting constantly lately and he ran off the other night duing a fight. i always break down cuz i can't help but thinking that hes going to be blinded by anger when hes driving and get in an accident and the last thing i wouldve said to him were those mean words. he cam home later on in the night thankfully but now he says i can't ride horses, have a cell phone or even go to church any more. ive been considering running away...but where to anyways. whats the point. school doesn't help either. i hate it there too. it seems everywhere i go, i just cant escape...