my life

When i was in my last 2 years of high school, i started cutting myself. For me i just liked feeling the pain. It felt good to me. I was having alot of problems in high school. I didnt know that i had depression and that there was something wrong with me until i had cops at my house because i said that i wanted to kill myself. I told my parents and my self that i didnt want to be alive anymore. i didnt know what to do. so i started seeing a theripist, i saw her every week. it went good. all was going good. until i started dating. Guys were taking advantage of me and i didnt know what to do. All my friends were telling me that i was being used for sex and money. i didnt want to believe them because i thought differently. i didnt see what was going on. the guys that i dated would tell me "i love you" ,,," your so pretty" and i would fall for that. so i just said here take my money. so then i was clean for 2 years until about 2 months ago when i had a relaps and i cut all up my arm. i am trying to get help for my depression and my cutting. i just wish that i could talk to someone who is going through the same thing i am.
samantha