Buddies W/ A Toliet all Summer

You think you are skinny until you turn on the television. When you see the skinny rockstars that look anorexic or bulimic. My heart just sinks when I see someone thinner than me; people say I'm the skinnest girl in school, but all I see is an obese fatty girl in the mirror and when I look at myself. I take laxatives when ever I eat over 200 cal. Laxatives cost way more than a sixteen year old would like to pay for; but it keeps me beautiful. When I run to the bathroom and sit on the toliet and my body drains of everything I'm happy at the moment, because I knew I just lost some of my weight. Though after an hour you get light headed and more hungry. Laxatives have been my easiest way to stay thin; but they cost so much. I wear size 3 pants and want to be size zero. But it seems that I have to kill myself just to be as skinny as other girls on television.

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