help me

I used to be completely happy with my body. I felt really good. Then, a little over a year ago, I was told that I wasn't fat, but for a dancer I was getting chubby. And that started it. I cannot remember the last time I looked in a mirror and was happy. I started to starve myself, but I was still miserable and started to eat normally again. Now I weigh fifteen pounds more, have gotten rid of all of my pants, and have been told that I have gained weight. I am miserable again. I have been told that I look chubbier multiple times and it has broken me again. I don't know what to do. I am eating less already and working out more, but I am not satisfied. Then I think of how God views me as His perfect creation and I can't take it because not only am I hurting myself, but God too. I don't like not eating enough, but I don't like looking in a mirror and feeling fat either. Right now, I'm choosing to starve. Even though I know it's the wrong thing to do, I can't do anything else. I need help.

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