I can't stop..

I have been bulimic since I was 15 years old. I have been hospitalized because of it and I cant talk to anyone about it because i know they will judge me. Sometimes I get so sick and I start convulsing. Its very scary and i wish I could stop. When you have this image in your head that youre not good enough its hard to stop trying to make yourself good enough.. my friend told me about this site and hopefully i can find some way to overcome this. I don't want to hurt anymore..