i just can't stop.

i eat so much. i eat when im bored, when im sad, when i need something to do. i mostly eat when im upset and i hate looking at myself in the mirror because i look so ugly and fat. when i am so upset looking at myself i sometimes cry and as i said earlier i eat to stop the pain and then i feel bad after i am done because it is gone and now i feel worse then before cause i just ate a lot. i just cant stop myself. its just a circle of food and crying.