Is too little okay???
This happens every time i get to a certain point. i loose control of my eating habbits. I dont really know how it happens. I get stressed and mad and the sad part is sometimes i dont even notice how i feel. I dont know how i loose control or that i even have.
I build up stress a lot and it sure can accumilate! most people eat more and stuff. I am just the opposite. I dont eat. I barely eat. Its like these are periods of starvation. Not really starvation but preety close. I mean i dont think it is too serious but if i keep it up i might seriously become anerexic or hurt my self.
I eat very little. Not becuae i want to eat little but because i just dont get hungry for long periods and have the will power to not eat. Not that i dont want to eat but . . . . . .
I dont really eat breakfast, nor lunch sometimes. Sometimes not even dinner. and if i do it is a small amount. My meals are skipped and for some reason it feels like no big deal. I dont crave the food so why force my self to eat???
Well i have been told this is not normal. And i just hate that. Everyone thinks its my stubborness not wanting to eat but its just not. My stomach has gotten quite a small apetite and its hard to eat a lot. Then rumors may go around or u get in trouble for not eating and it just becomes a big mess!
I know it is not healthy but it is just how i am. Hopefully i wont get to a horrible point. I need freedom from my stress. If it werent for all the obsticles in my life like trying to live the perfect Christian life when you keep skrewing up and failing then maybe i woulnt be in this situation with my eating habbits. . . . or lack of eating. Its not like i am taking my stress out in a BAD way like i have but this is small. But i hope it doesnt get biger. Gosh i hope. I need prayer. Only God can help me becuase i dont like discussing my problems with the people around me. I just feel like a mess. a mess only Jesus can clean . . . . and i am sure that is how a lot of you feel. Do you like the problems u have? probly not. Eating too much or too llittle can be quite stressing. Know its not thye way. Jesus is. And i am learning that too with you.



