Just a Thought

I'm definately not your normal girl. I used to cut, been depressed, and now have had thoughts of throwing up, or starving myself to lose weight.

I'm not what you call fat, I was actually born two months early, so I'm guess what you could a lil "underweight". But everytime I look at myself, I definately don't like what I see.

This past spring break I went with my family to Orlando, Florida. We were walking around in Univerisal Studios, and these goregous, tall, skinny girls were walking around and every guy was staring of them. Now don't get me wrong, I don't care if guys stare at me, I just wish I looked like them.

I'm still eating, just because I think of not eating then I just do, but I don't. I want to lose weight. I feel fat, even though I just weigh 100 pounds. I feel ugly, fat, and like I'm not getting noticed by the world.

Please help me. I don't want to have an eating disorder, but I have a feeling I will suffer from one soon.