I don't want to wake up

Hi,

I'm Darren. 17 years old and I stuggle with BDD (Body dysmorphic disorder). I hate myself, I'm tired of always looking at myself in the mirror and thinking negitive things about who I am all the time.

I feel like I have no friends and sometimes I just lay in my bed praying to God that I won't wake up because I don't want to face myself anymore. I hide away fom the world outside and stay house bound 24/7.

Body dysmorphic disorder has taken my life away. I feel like ending my life all the time so people won't be so annoyed by me asking how I look all the time.

I want to be a police officer when I turn 19 but it's destoryed my dreams. School has turned into complete hell so I am not able to go back until September.

It's been hard but I am trying to get as much help as I can. I am hoping to at least start getting my life back on track soon.

Thanks for Listening,

Darren Bell.

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