My story

I never thought of myself as the depressive type. Though when I was younger I would sit at home and be thinking so much about mistakes I had made. I didn't even realize I was so sad until one day I found myself sitting in my closet staring at a gun, thinking about how easy it would have been to just end the sadness.

I couldn't go through with it. I loved my family so much that something inside me wanted to stay alive so they wouldn't have to be sad.

I never thought that it would come to that.

I had been in church my whole life but never truly grasped what christianity was. Until the summer of 2008.

I am still so sick of how I wear a mask over the real me still sometimes. I want to be an open book for everyone to read and to see how God has redeemed me.

I'm getting better slowly through the help of my friends. and I am slowly realizing how God can redeem me from my worst mistakes and make me whole again.
I want others to know that they are not alone. That no one has condemned me for being depressive. Tell someone, because that was definitely the biggest help for me.

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