A reason to give up

It's funny how God works. I've been struggling with self-injury for nearly two years, and about seven months ago I was given the perfect opportunity to give it up. Home life was better, I was close to God, I had a fantastic boyfriend, and I was doing well in school. There was no reason for me to continue cutting . . . but I did.
I started abusing it. I would cut at any minor annoyance. And when things started to get bad again, I went off the deep end. My boyfriend at the time - who professes to be a Christian - 'couldn't handle it' with the depression, so he broke up with me for a close friend. At one point, I cut my arm seven times in a row and wore long sleeves every day to school, even though it was starting to get warm outside.
I finally came to my wit's end. Another close friend at school found out that I was cutting and threatened to stop being friends with me because of it. My first instinct was to shun them and turn in on myself; I'm the victim here, they can take it or leave it. It's not my fault that my life sucks, right?
But somewhere, I finally got it into my head. I was losing touch with God, I'd lost a boyfriend and was on the verge of losing my best friend . . . for what? A few moments of temporary relief? Cutting never solved anything. I have the scars to prove that all it did was make things worse. I was tired of thinking about cutting all the time. I was tired of hiding the scars. I wanted to just live life like a normal person! So I went through my room and got rid of every razor blade I could find. (I scared myself at how many I actually had in there.)
I'm now proud to say that I've been cut-free for 3 months and counting. I've only cut once in the past 5 months. I'm reconnecting with God, my friends are close to me again, and one of my best friends is now my boyfriend. They all know about my past, but they know how far I've come and are all proud of me for coming as far as I have. And what more could anyone ask for?

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