its a slow fade

my story was originally called "its a slow fade, when black and white are turned to grey" well for me the dad issue isnt any better... but i stoped smoking for the most part... basically cuz my brother moved out of town... but anyways! i am moving to a new town so my plan for the next 2 yrs of my life is to pretend that all the crap that happened in the last 16 yrs of my life hasnt happened and i will just remember the happy times before my family fell apart...
i recently started listening to a band called blue october... i know its not a christian band but i dont care what my mom thinks... the song blue does is my favorite... the lead singer of the band (justin furstenfeld) is also the songwriter and he wrote the song for his daughter ( her name is Blue) and in the song he says "shes the answer to the silence, shes my sound" and i have vowed that when i grow up and have kids i will be that kind of parent and i will marry a guy who treats my kids the right way... i know this was long but thanks for reading and pls pray for me~~nessie

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