diserment or leting go.
I spent almost two years with a girl. recently admitted she had cheated and is moving on. its been a month and because of the soul knots I made with her I simply have not been able to move on. Ive cried out for help turned to anything to numb the thoughts of what happened. her current "boyfriend" has been tormenting me with words I cant repeat....
Our path is set. Our love is tested.
I've fallen hard. Good and bad. i lost my self and slowly drifted from where im suppose to be headed. Lost for eleven years God brings an angel into my life but where I can't reach her. I love her with all my heart and I know God brought her to me to bring me back to his grace. Everytime i speak to her i feel closer to my Father. Where miles...
Giving Affection
Is it weird that I long to call a girl beautiful, say I love you, and it not be awkward?It seems like such a weird thing to want, but I’ve really wanted be able to give affection rather than receive. I don’t know the word, but I’ve realized how important it is for me to make sure others are happy. Putting myself before others. I’ve been told...
Emotional Roller Coaster
I hate rollercoasters as they are, but emotional rollercoasters are even worse. I want of you not of me Lord. It's becoming overwhelming to not have my heart lead me in a direction and not know where you want me to go. I can't help, but like this specific girl and wish she was the one you wanted me to be with. I've been praying extensively...
Finding My Companion
This has been something on my mind for the past week and was hoping if I posted this anywhere else besides Tumblr here would be a good spot to share.
Ever since I’ve come to college I’ve been thinking “maybe God has the girl of my dreams” or “my future wife could be here”, but it’s probably not the case. This is really a lot for me to talk...
Seeking His Will
At a young age of just 13, I saw so many older kids falling in and out of relationships. I made a purpose in my heart with God to be different. When I fell in love, I wanted it to be a rare thing and something special; something that people look at and say "There different than the rest."
I would pray every night saying, "Jesus, if the person...
I Really don't know who i am.
This story is very simple but very hard for me to comprehend. I dont understand why i am the way i am. It started when i was young, didn't lose my parents but they were never there since i was 6. My mother didn't do it on purpose, but im not sure about my father. Now, my mother went into a coma while i was in my 2nd year of school. I had a...
Perfect love
Even though my world around me is crashing down,God is still there for me comferting me filling me with his peace love and joy.
The girl i loved so much broke up with me for my bestfriend there not together but thier "bestfriends" ,and there almost always together and are closer.
I met her from him and they where talking for a while but ...
Sexual Struggles
I'm a guy who has been raised in the church all my life. I was always taught that sex before marriage was wrong and I never thought that I would ever struggle with it. I started dating a girl who was recently a new christian at the time, and we both agreed that we weren't going to do anything sexual in our relationship.
About 6 months into the...
My fault
So my ex-girlfriend and I were completely inseparable our first year as a couple. We started dating the month before our senior year of high school and after about 3 months I knew I was in love and so was she. I was so sure she was the one. She had the biggest heart and most caring personality in the world. We left for college though and that's...
Unknown Ending
I fell head over for this girl...when I've never allowed myself to do so before. I fell in love with her 3 year old daughter and think of her as my own child. She got pregnant and the elation of being a father was a feeling like nothing I've experienced and through that my love for her grew. Yesterday, a day before the ultrasound, she tells me...
Unknown Ending
I fell head over for this girl...when I've never allowed myself to do so before. I fell in love with her 3 year old daughter and think of her as my own child. She got pregnant and the elation of being a father was a feeling like nothing I've experienced and through that my love for her grew. Yesterday, a day before the ultrasound, she tells me...
Unknown Ending
I fell head over for this girl...when I've never allowed myself to do so before. I fell in love with her 3 year old daughter and think of her as my own child. She got pregnant and the elation of being a father was a feeling like nothing I've experienced and through that my love for her grew. Yesterday, a day before the ultrasound, she tells me...
My Best Friend
So there's this girl that I've been talking to pretty much everyday for the last year. She's my best friend. She means so much to me and I would do anything for her. The worst part is, I want to be more than friends and she doesn't. We have so much in common, we trust each other a lot, probably more than we trust our own family. She makes me...
Bring the Healing
So, this past month, my life has changed the most it ever has. To sum it up short and sweet, the love of my life stopped liking me and started liking my best friend. It seems like one of those things that would never happen, but it did. Weeks went by that I physically could not eat, and I just withdrew from everything. Always thinking to...
Born This Way
I believed I was gay. My life was consumed in the nature of the homosexual lifestyle and I acted the part of being happy so well that I deserve an Academy Award for best Actor, Best Supporting Role, and Movie of the Year.
Everything was a lie and I wanted nothing but to live my life the way I wanted and to be happy. The constant drinking lead...
Getting the Wrong Idea
I turned my life to God on November 9th 2010 at the age of 17. It felt like the darkness would finally be gone. I was under the impression that I would never hurt emotionally again because God had finally aligned my life not only back to Him, but to Her. Her name is Zoe, and she was my best friend. We first knew each other in 3rd grade, back at...
Relationship not Religion
July 24th, 2011
today was a big day for me. Cory Hruska, my best friend, brother in christ, and my best man at my wedding one day, is a member of the Jesus Christ church of Latter Day Saints. I met him when I was 15 years old and we haven't stop being best friends since then. His family kind of took me under their wing and treated me like one...
Love vs. Lust
I don't know where it started, or even when it happens. I was brought up with incredible parents, who were always working hard at making me and my brother's life easiest as possible and no life experiences that would effected that. I had a huge desire to become a musician, not for the fan base, but because music is my life. I was in a band, and...
Relationships: I got pretty good at looking it up.
I've always grown up in the same church with the same church family and friends. I've always been a Christian and followed God, but that doesn't mean I haven't had my struggles.
The biggest struggle I have ever faced was my attempted suicide. I don't remember the actual date, but I do remember it was in the late summer of 2007. My mom had gone...
I need help
I started to masturbating when i was around 8 . When i was , around 10 I stopped , and never did it again , untill i was 13, i guess . When I was 14 , i became a christian , and in the same year i was addicted to masturbating and just couldn't stop . It was controling my life , and taking me away from God . I use to pray a lot about this . And...
I love her... but I was a monster.
I love her. But I can't imagine myself being with her in an intimate way - even just kissing her, while I'm keeping things secret from her; while I'm burdened by my past.
I did some pretty stupid shit in my teens (who didn't, but still). Among other, probably more common perversities, I jerked off to things one shouldn't ever jerk off to:...
Poison
It seems like such a stereotypical title, I know - but it's the only real way to describe the way it feels.
The shame, the embarrassment, the need to make it go away and the want to take it all back. The feeling of the need to cut myself open and bleed the poison out of me.
Pornography.
I don't even know how to describe how it started...
Me-In a nutshell
You can call "B" for short.
But I struggle with cyber sex and viewing porn. I've broken peoples trust and few so nasty. I can't seem to forgive myself for all the people i've sinned against a wronged. I heard through the grapevine, that I am not a very "dateable" person, that no girl should date a person like me. I am starting to believe that...
raped- where was God to protect?
New Years Eve 8 years ago at my friend's house I was raped by someone's older brother. (I never met till that night) He was home on leave from the army.
We were the "good" kids on campus... you had to turn in your keys if you had a drink & if you were underage & wanted to drink you had to stay overnight and we somebody solber assigned to be...
All my life
I finally admitted something to a friend today that I needed to get off of my chest. There has never been a time in my life that I can't remember NOT masturbating. I did it even before I knew what it was.
Still even then I knew not to make it known to my parents.
Early on in grade school, someone had us come look at what someone had thrown...
My testimony as a hooker
I was raised in church by both of my parents. I really didn't take advantage of being a child of god when I was younger. When I got in high school all I cared about was me and none else.
I was introduced to prostitution at the age of 17. At the time I was rebelling against god and didn't have anywhere to go. I would of went to my parents house...
The Truth
I feel very disillusioned today… I found out that someone very close to me is struggling with porn. I found this out by accidentally opening his history on his computer. I did not mean to, but there it was. Now it is like a white elephant in the room with me. I understand porn, but only from my point of view, which is very limited. I wish that...
How did this happen???
Long story here it goes;
4th grade i had a friend. He got me started watching porn. After that we started dry humping eachother. Friend moved away and not much happened. then a different friend that had moved away came to visit in the summer orf 6th grade. I felt very curious and so did he so we started trying various sexual acts out. After a...
But I am a GIRL!
I didn't realize it at the time, but I knew it was wrong. I might have been five or six. Me and my best friend, the pastors daughter, would play "house" or "hotel" and every time we would "pretend" to be a couple on their honeymoon, or just a fling. But at such a young age how did we think to do all that wrong stuff?
It all stopped when I was...
