All my life
I finally admitted something to a friend today that I needed to get off of my chest. There has never been a time in my life that I can't remember NOT masturbating. I did it even before I knew what it was.
Still even then I knew not to make it known to my parents.
Early on in grade school, someone had us come look at what someone had thrown...
My testimony as a hooker
I was raised in church by both of my parents. I really didn't take advantage of being a child of god when I was younger. When I got in high school all I cared about was me and none else.
I was introduced to prostitution at the age of 17. At the time I was rebelling against god and didn't have anywhere to go. I would of went to my parents house...
The Truth
I feel very disillusioned today… I found out that someone very close to me is struggling with porn. I found this out by accidentally opening his history on his computer. I did not mean to, but there it was. Now it is like a white elephant in the room with me. I understand porn, but only from my point of view, which is very limited. I wish that...
How did this happen???
Long story here it goes;
4th grade i had a friend. He got me started watching porn. After that we started dry humping eachother. Friend moved away and not much happened. then a different friend that had moved away came to visit in the summer orf 6th grade. I felt very curious and so did he so we started trying various sexual acts out. After a...
But I am a GIRL!
I didn't realize it at the time, but I knew it was wrong. I might have been five or six. Me and my best friend, the pastors daughter, would play "house" or "hotel" and every time we would "pretend" to be a couple on their honeymoon, or just a fling. But at such a young age how did we think to do all that wrong stuff?
It all stopped when I was...
horrified
I'm writing this because I need to get it off my chest.
I'm 21, married, and about to become a father. I'm also a recovering porn addict. I've been clean for 2 years now through the help of my loving wife and my Lord Jesus Christ. In about 1 month, I will be the proud father of a little baby girl. It absolutely petrifies me to think that my...
Grace for me is all I need
The first time I ever saw pornography I was eight years old. My friend Katy and I were going through all of my brothers movies and saw a few that had naked girls on the front. We joked about it and were really curious. I revisited them and my addiction started there. At first I just blamed it on my curiosity but then I realized that if was more...
sexaul abuse
I was mentally and sexaully abused at a young age by one of my family member and a family friend. As i got older i don't have anyone to turn to but porn magazines and videos so thats what I did.Then I got married after one year after I gradguade high school. Thought that after marrage I wouldn't have anything to worry about but I was wrong it...
deliverance
It all started when I was 13 years old. I saw my first porn picture by accident on the internet. I had grown up in a christian home, so I knew what I was looking at was wrong. People who say that porn isn't harmful have never had to deal with the true nature of it before. It eroded my life like a cancer. It started with just sneaking a few...
I just can't get over it...
I sit in a room, whether alone or not, my iPod in my hands and an evil desire in my heart... I have sturuggled for 4 years to get away from my now 10 year problem. I have accountability software and for moths ata time the desires seem to dissappear only to return with a vengence a week or so later. I don't know what to do. I have told a few...
it was my life
my life started going down hill after i lost my father.... he was still here physically but mentally and emotionally he wasnt there for me at all.... i was young and i needed a males attention and i wanted it to be my daddy but he was always drunk and didnt wanna talk or hold me and he was all i had because my mother had abandon me at a young...
Looking Back On My Life
How i wish i could turn back time.
About 2 1/2 years ago i struggled with depression badly and i was dragging on day to day. For about a year and a half i was depressed and I felt i wouldn't live for much longer. Well i met a boy at my school and he seemed acsepting of my chubby body and i knew he wasnt the best crowd but i didnt care any...
Recovering Victim
I wrote a very disturbing story on this website Decmber 29th 2008. I had written that story about my math teacher who had been molesting me. After six months my mom had found out. He was arrested and I was sent to a treatment facility. He was free for about 6 months. On October 27th he was sentenced to 18-25 years in state prison. I was so...
she needs help.
My younger sister was raped this past school year. She is a freshman and I am a junior. She was raped by a guy in my grade. Although this happened in November, my family and I have just now discovered the truth in January. It breaks my heart to see her so upset. She wants to handle it by herself, but she can't. My mom has even been through the...
I just need to know someone is listening...
I just need to get this all out...
At fourteen i had been completely innocent. I had been sheltered as the youth ministers daughter and thats what everyone expected of me. perfection. I thought all the sexual abuse stories were not like they seemed and i thought tha it would never happen to me... but boy was i wrong...
Fall of my junior...
Lessons Learned...
I'm not writing to specifically encourage or offer advice. I want to share the deeper reasons of what led me to self-injury. Once I understood the roots it became easier for me to stop. I only hope that this gives others insight into their own actions.
Cutting is interesting. Actually, all self-injury activities are interesting. They are a...
I don't know how to stop.....
I have no idea how it even started. I think I was sixteen and just surfing the web. I think I was on a clothing site. The devil tempted me and before I knew it I was looking in the men's underwear section......looking at the photos. But ofcourse that wasn't enough. I had to start searchin for male underwear models.................and then I...
not how life is suppose to be
I grew up in a strict Christian home, isolated in the country. I had a hard time socializing with other people. Over the years I have taken missions trips and other tasks. However, I also became addicted to porn and it has affected my life dramaticallly. Finally I got married and now have a 3 yr old daughter. I lost my job last year due...
The Sickening taste of Relapse
I have been part of a recovery program for sexual addiction for a little over a year. When I started, I was so ready to be transparent. I mean after 15 years + of sexual addiction, I was tired and would do anything. I disappointed my wife, but she was and is still very supportive. I went for 8 months without looking or masturbating to...
Burden on my soul
I like so many of the people how are addicted to this
sicking addiction.It stared for me when i was very young.Lets just say a parertal figure wanted to get a little bit closer to me than before.And before i knew it
i was watching porn. And because of the other things this parental figure wanted to do with me i've had homosexual thoughts as...
Help me
I need to admit this to somebody. I've had a porn addiction for about 2 years. I've tried to quit but I can't. I'm trying everything to quit. I wish i could stop, I just want to stop. I don't want to admit this to anyone because it's embarrassing. I wish it would just end. I'm so desperate . Please help.
tierd
i'm addicted porn. i've been struggleing with it for years. I want to give it up. I love God and just want to be free. I need help.
The pain of porn
My husband and I have been married 2 years and together for 3. When we met we were instantly that annoying couple that were always doing romantic things. As soon as we were married something changed I knew something was wrong. After a year of me being upset with the level of romance and physical intamacy he finally told me it was an addition to...
porn
hi,
am 18 years old and my secret is about pornography.... no one knows about it but i want to share it with you guys.........
well i started waching porn when i was about 6 years old i was looking around and this was back when my parents were together.....and i found my dads dirty magazines they were cartoons and i really didnt know what it...
I think I've gotten just a bit better.
I've taken the last few hours to think about this so please understand this isn't a simple, or even a whimsical post, its serious.
I have committed a crime, like no other, and punishable in some countries by cutting off ones own hand. I am a chronic masterbater. Yeah, doesn't sound so bad, but its staqrting to get to me.
I think I've finally...
The power of Jesus's Love
I am 29 this year. Prior to now I have wondered, thought, worried and asked the question in the privacy of my mind, Lord will I ever be able to serve you again with this pornography leprosy in my soul? I have struggled, fought, prayed, read some scriptures and listened to ministers who take the issue of sexual perversion seriously but it all...
Mastrabtion and pron addiction
Hi i'm Zoey I'm a 14 year old roman Catholic and I've been addicted to porn and mastrabation for 2 years.I just can't stop it.I've stoped watching porn mistley but the mastrabation is really hard to stop.I do it when i get bored mostly at night when I'm alone and can't sleep cuase I'm an isomniac.I need some kind of online help and I can't...
The Other Side of Porn Addiction
When I was 15 years old, I had a boyfriend who decided we should be intimate. Naive and wanting love, I allowed it to happen. One day we were at his house, and I saw a DVD player in his room. He had never had a DVD player in there before, so it piqued my curiosity. To my horror, it was a hardcore pornographic DVD. I opened the drawer...
From habit to addiction
I was about 9 when I first had an encounter with masturbation. I'm not even really sure how it started. It continued on for quite a while and one day I turned it over to God. It really hadn't been a big thing for me. It wasn't hard to give up, it was something I did when I was bored. So I stopped.
Three years of victory went by. I didn't...
what started off innocent
I was introduced to pornography at a very young age. Just Playboy's in my grandfathers basement boxed up that i happened to stumble upon being a nosy little kid. For a few years every night i slept over i would sneak downstairs and get a quick fix. As i got older i sought out harder materials. When i was 12 i got my first taste of hardcore...
