Burden on my soul

I like so many of the people how are addicted to this
sicking addiction.It stared for me when i was very young.Lets just say a parertal figure wanted to get a little bit closer to me than before.And before i knew it
i was watching porn. And because of the other things this parental figure wanted to do with me i've had homosexual thoughts as well.Im not gay but still thoughts. None the less this addictions to porn is still
A very real thing i have dreams of women from these movies. im not blaming this parental figure im adult now.I always thought that i should be able to shake this.But it has been very hard to do over the years.
I always thought i was the only one who felt this way.
i dont mean to sound selfish or anything.its just that ive hid this from my family my whole life.And i have always been the one with this burden on my soul.I just
recently told my mother about this she told everythings going to be alright.I want to belive her but i know that it starts with my belief and love of god
and they it starts in me i just hope im strong enough.
well it sure felt good to say something.I hope that the change i seek will come someday i will always prey thank you for reading.And may god bless you.

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