deliverance

It all started when I was 13 years old. I saw my first porn picture by accident on the internet. I had grown up in a christian home, so I knew what I was looking at was wrong. People who say that porn isn't harmful have never had to deal with the true nature of it before. It eroded my life like a cancer. It started with just sneaking a few glances every now and then, to using ALL of my spare time to watch porn.
Nothing else was as important as getting that fix, even though the pleasure lasted but a few minutes. It when on that way for 6-7 years and it affected every part of my life. I started using language I'd never used before. I had my first sexual encounter before marraige because of the pornographic thoughts that were always in my head. There was no break from the sexual images on my mind and in my heart. It caused me to break the trust of the one person I loved most dearly.
I thought that God hated me and I started to spiral into deep depression. I hated myself more every day because of the things I'd seen and done. I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror because of how disgusted I was with what I had become.

Then someone told me about a book called " He Came to Set the Captives Free". The book is the true story about a woman's delivery from witchcraft. I read it and its two sequels and God started to work in my heart. I began to see myself as someone who God loved enough to deliver from sin. I asked God to cleanse my heart and mind from all the things I'd seen and done and to forgive me for sinning against him.

I have now been porn free for 2 years. It's definitly a daily struggle to resist those temptations and urges that Satan afficlts me with, but calling on my Lord Jesus Christ and asking Him to help control my mind and heart delivers me from it every day,

I know alot of you out there have the same problems and I know how you can get help. Ask Jesus to be your saviour if He isn't already. And if He is, Then truely give your life over to Him. Let Him control your heart and mind, and you'll find that the burden gets easier to bear. It will still be hard, but trusting in God is the only true way to beat this.

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