How did this happen???

Long story here it goes;
4th grade i had a friend. He got me started watching porn. After that we started dry humping eachother. Friend moved away and not much happened. then a different friend that had moved away came to visit in the summer orf 6th grade. I felt very curious and so did he so we started trying various sexual acts out. After a weekend of blowjobs and others he went away and i was left confused. I stopped watching porn and was "clean" for a while. Then the big puberty hit and i discovered the beauty of masturbation. I had a great time but i soon realized that i was fantasizing about guys instead of girls. I would look at a shirtless guy at the pool or beach and crave to have him with me. Then i started looking at gay porn in 8th grade. Downward spiral from there until i went to camp up at Hume Lake in California after sophomore year. I had tried to tell someone my story before but had never gotten the courage to tell the whole thing. Up at camp i got the courage and told this story. I am now actively fighting offmy urges to fantasize about guys and masturbate altogether. My counselors at camp gave me courage and helped me see that i could past this and that i am not gay which was haunting me for while. They said that when sin gets a foothold it can manifest itself in strange ways that are contrary to your personality. I am empowered by them and would love to talk to peoople who have advice for me or who are going through a similar situation.

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