not how life is suppose to be

I grew up in a strict Christian home, isolated in the country. I had a hard time socializing with other people. Over the years I have taken missions trips and other tasks. However, I also became addicted to porn and it has affected my life dramaticallly. Finally I got married and now have a 3 yr old daughter. I lost my job last year due to excessive guilt, blah, and lack of focus upon my work. I am doing menial work and can't seem to get up the nerve to get back into the "real world" and find a job that will help to support my family.
I tried Celebrate Recovery, but it just seems "too canned" (the structure). I need to do something so that I may stop making up excuses for why I am not finding a job.
thank you.

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