Recovering Victim

I wrote a very disturbing story on this website Decmber 29th 2008. I had written that story about my math teacher who had been molesting me. After six months my mom had found out. He was arrested and I was sent to a treatment facility. He was free for about 6 months. On October 27th he was sentenced to 18-25 years in state prison. I was so happy. I havent self harmed in a long time and I am now feeling great about myself. I no longer live in his shadow or constantly think about him. I am my own person now and he doesnt own any part of me. I know that I can and will get my life together. Basically if there is anyone out there who has had something like this happen well I understand. It took me a long time to get out of the "loyalty" stage and into the "anger" part. If that is happeneing right now please think about it. He doesnt love you at all. He loves your vulnerability. He loves the control he has over you. He loves knowing you cant live without him. He loves the excitment of not getting caught. You think that maybe he loves you, and he is controlling because its just how a man shows his love. Wlel its not. I know that it might feel good...so so good for a little while but think. How does it make you feel after you leave him. You feel so very sad. you feel like you have never felt before you are so depressed and you want him even more. Well guess what, thats what he wants. He tricked and manipulated you to make you come back.. Please dont let him hurt you anymore. You are worth so much more than what he or other people say. It took me a long time to be able to say that and I dont want anyone to go through what I am. So if thats you out there...then think.

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