The power of Jesus's Love

I am 29 this year. Prior to now I have wondered, thought, worried and asked the question in the privacy of my mind, Lord will I ever be able to serve you again with this pornography leprosy in my soul? I have struggled, fought, prayed, read some scriptures and listened to ministers who take the issue of sexual perversion seriously but it all seemed to do me little help. I reflected on the kind, gentle and loving words of my Saviour about His desire to shoulder all my burdens and deal with all my cares but it seemed I am rather too far from Him to take comfort in those words. I needed the assurance of His love so bad that I started an illicit affair with a girl - an unbeliever. Lost in the pain of the hurts that grew from a severed relationship with Jesus, I went deep into the sin of sexual immorality. This creatd a void in my life that no activity no matter how "exciting" it is can fill. My life felt like it was coming apart. I lost control of my future, my studies...my life. But then in the darkest depth of my woes I creid out Lord I can't take it no more. I can't any more of this pain and guilt that has darkened Your love in my heart. Lord I want to be free, free from the beast I have made of myself, free from the claws of sexual sin. I made a decision for Jesus that night and took a walk of freedom out of my delima. My point is: No sin however strong it may pose to be in our minds can overtake us when we deci de to stand on our liberty in Jesus and be faithful to Him. I love Jesus with al my heart and soul. I have always desired a more intimate relationship with Him. This is what I am currently working on. I want my life to become synbiotic with His so much so that nothing can come inbetween Him and me. Pornographic addiction has roots basically in selfishness which is quite the opposite trait we find in Jesus. I find victory in His undying and limitless love for me. His long patience and forebearance have proven to be invaluable to my overcoming pronography and fornication - my besetting sins. You can be free if you decide to make a decision for Him today. It takes your decision to be free. It wil always begin with that. Yeah! I have stayed free of porn for the past one month. But I don't rejoice in this but rather I give thanks to the Lord for His gentle and undying love for me. He loves you too and wants you to be free from the burden, guilt and pain of sexual immorality.

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