Just Who I Am.
You know, I didn't know I had a real problem until my eighth grade year. Was it normal to pull out patches of your hair at night? Was it normal to put scissors to your arm over and over again? I had a problem, I knew it. Fighting my troubling childhood memories became a daily chore. Everything would make me think of my father's drug abuse, and...
The Power of Drugs
The Power of Drugs-Drug addict dies 11 minutes
The I Did Not Know book, which I wrote, mainly speaks about drug usage and abuse. Drugs were here on earth before any of us were born. Many people began using drugs in their teen years. When that is done, it is a child’s brain up against a 1000 years old clever substance. No matter what age you...
my past is not my future...
At age 35 - i am alive, i solo parent 3 of the worlds most incredible daughters, i speak, i write, i run a charity that exists to come alongside women wanting a life change from addiction issues and/or the sex industry....why?
That woman used to be me.
Now i get the honour to come alongside the women that I used to be and tell them my story.
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Oh, Brother.
So I guess it all started out when my brother was 11 or 12. He always hung out with the druggies and the "out casts" My mom never really thought anything of it, untill he started getting caught by the cops. First at age 11 he started smoking cigarretts, Then it was drinking. Mind you, he was only 11 or 12. When he started to hang out with...
Falling
i've been falling into this huge hole lately and everytime i try to get out i keep falling deeper into it so that it seems impossible...
last november, i lost the love of my life. somone who i thought was always going to be there for me but left..
i gave my all to him and left everything behind for him. He was the first person i ever gave my...
Everyone's doing it
my friends were bored one day, so we decided to throw a little party. the party started out small but a lot of people showed up and it got out of control. every weekend after that we had parties, so we wouldnt be bored, and even though i dont like the way alcohol makes me feel i keep drinking. i drink to fit in. i am so self conscious that i...
Who I was, a scared, hurt teenage girl
15 years old. It all came down to one thing. I was scared and lost. My parents divorced twice my little sister passed away. My mom not totally in the picture and me not getting along with my father. I was struggling in school. I was losing a guy who really meant a lot to me. I knew people who were doing so why couldn't I? I started by using a...
Forever A Cutter
Someone once told me I cut so I will always remember.
I cut to forget and forgive.
I don't cut myself for your approval.
I don't cut myself fro your attention.
I do cut myself for satisfaction.
The Satisfaction of knowing that it is I who hold the power.
I who put this blade to my skin.
I who controls, how deep how much how far I will go.
When...
ive lost my hero
ever since i was a child, ive had it somewhat rough. when i was a baby to four years old, my brother and i was abused by my real father. then dcfs came in and things happened to get him away from us all. well then my mother met who is now my step father, who was a cop at the time. and i still had visitations with my father and when the abuse...
Who's got 20 to throw in?
I am currently in a situation that i know is wrong, but it is so good.
I have a major problem with drugs, almost everything except meth, at least not yet, but in my life you never know when that could change, i've done everything, pot, shrooms, lsd, crack, heroin, coke, dmt, opium, X, Mollie, you name it, i've probably done it, i don't steal...
Lost.
i'm a full blown addict. to pretty much everything people can be addicted to. i'm 19 years old and i have a 3 year old daughter. i'm addicted to sex. i've had about 20 sexual partners since my daughter was born. i'm addicted to alcohol. before i started college a year ago, i was drinking just about everyday, alone or with friends- it didn't...
The Craving, The Detachment, My Life
Let me start this off honestly, I love weed.
I was introduced to smoking by an older friend back in December of '08. The first time was a thrilling experience for me, but decided that I wouldn't seek the drug, but if it was offered i would gladly accept. At the beginning of this ordeal, I only smoked about twice a month, but soon enough I...
Addicted
i'm currently 15. I don't write this for people to feel sorry for me, because all this is my own fault. The first part is not my own doing. My family had alot of tragedies occur. My uncle killed himself my bother developed a seizure disorder and my moms undergone many life saving surgeries. I spent alot of time alone, utterly alone. My grandpa...
brief overview of a life full of choices
making a choice in the moment...i never thought it would affect me years later. ive moved around as a kid and i always made friends and was in with the crowd. everywhere i went people enjoyed my company. i started hanging out with my current boyfriend and ive been raised in a christian home, he was not. we get along though...we are best...
My Story In My Words.
I believe that everyone has a story. I am publicly sharing mine in hopes to encourage you to share yours.
-------------------------------------------------------------------I am MJ, I was born in South Carolina but I now live in Georgia.
-------------------------------------------------------------------I was born in Charleston SC, and a few...
Pot Helps???
I guess I never really thought it was possibly to get addicted to marijuana. I've always heard that it was a gateway drug, and there's no real evidence that someone can actually physically become addicted to it. Now that always made me feel crazy, because I've tried to stop smoking - several times. Sometimes I was successful but others, not so...
sex,drugs,and achohol
i am 15 years old and i am addicted to sex,drugs and acohol.noone knows ahave went to a party and gotten so bout me and my friends. i have gotten so drunk and so hi at parties that i slept with every guy there i tried the 20 day challenge i didnt last 2 i need help i sleerpt with 13 guys this week. i am scared my mom will find out. what do i do.
From destroying lives and families to restoring lives and families
I grew up in a Christian home, and grew up being taught about God and church my dad was a pastor, but never really got that I needed a relationship. Getting picked on at a young age, and when my family moved to martinsburg at the 6th grade it was my chance to have friends and make a name for myself. By the 8th grade I had a reputation that was...
The Girl I Became
I always knew I felt different, but never knew why..... I grew up in a home filled with abuse and alcoholism. When I think back to my earliest memories, I remember being made fun of as a kid for my dad killing someone in a drunk driving accident and being in jail. We lived in a smaller community and everyone seemed to know each others...
Day by Day
Almost all of my family are druggies, alcholics, ect; or have been. When I was 7 years old my father left. Thats when it all went down hill. Things started out small by simply not listening to the rules. Getting in trouble. My mother to me seemed like a sex addict. Every night, the bar, a new man. I witnessed her sex life. I grew up way too...
Cant get out
Let me first say that I am a normal hard working American trying to make ends meet. I know that term is used loosely but its the only term that a blue collar worker as myself uses frequently. I moved back to Ohio with my parents along with my daughter and son to help my parents through rough medical issues. I moved back into my home town and...
a bag of weed, bacardi, and sex.
I have no clue how to start this, it's really hard to explain my situation.
In elementary school, I had no friends, no one liked me. I was fat, and I lied to much. I tried so hard to have friends.
In middle school, I started to drink, I was twelve, and my dad was an alcoholic, so I did. In seventh grade, my bestfriend got pregnant,...
A Way Out
I started my abuse in college. I had a lot of regrets. I wanted to be someone I simply wasn't, and I abused alcohol to make those feelings go away. I wanted to be a person that I could not be, and in my despair, I looked to alcohol as a way out.
It wasn't.
Instead, it was a rubber crutch. It looked like it would be a stepping stone for...
More than addicted:(
All though elementary school i hyad no friends and everyone made fun of me for my family being poor. Everyday i would walk through school and ba called ugly, dumpster girl,etc.
I strived so hard to become wanted that i started breaking the law to hang out with the trouble makers. It was in 7th grade that i met a girl who would change my life...
Cutting & addiction
I've been a christian my whole life but my life has taken some wrong turns. This past year , i've gotten into drugs , drinking , and cutting. The source of all of this has been my constant depression from being manipulated and hurt. & ever since my parents found out about me smoking weed , i've stopped. but i still find myself wanting to go out...
Living with a mother who is an addict
Growing up with the constant appearance of drugs and alcohol was nothing too out of the ordinary for us.It's almost all I knew,My mother did know I knew but I knew everything that went on.Keeping serious things like drugs,alcohol,and promiscuos behavior takes a tole on you physically and emotionally.No one should have to go through or see the...
Life.....
Name any kind of the top problems affecting youth today and I can admit that I have struggled with most of them. I have not had a drug addiction but I have tried weed before, drank, had suicidal thoughts, inflicted bodily harm upon myself, had an eating disorder, and came close to losing my virginity just to rebel.
However, through all of this...
Can't stay clean
Since I was a kid, I've always been a perfectionist, to the point of addiction one might even say. My teachers always said it kept me from truly doing my best because I became obsessed with being the best. Eventually this progressed to other things. First, it was sex. I started touching myself at a young age, not really knowing what it meant or...
drugs, alchohol, porn, and pills
hey my name is garrison im 18 and from weiner, ar. i started smoking cigarretes and dipping snuff when i was in the 6th grade. i didnt think anything was wrong with it. as i got older i started doing more. i was drinking at parties around 14 and had fun doin it but i realized that i kept hurting myself so i started smoking pot. i didnt think it...
I lost control
I fell in love with a guy that i couldnt have. We started having sex and I thought we might go somewhere in the long run. Hes a pretty amazing guy but he just got out of a long realtionship with a girl that he proposed to. So he wasnt in any shape to be with me. We stayed together for about 4 months b4 our first "seperation". I was crushed. I...
