Everyone's doing it

my friends were bored one day, so we decided to throw a little party. the party started out small but a lot of people showed up and it got out of control. every weekend after that we had parties, so we wouldnt be bored, and even though i dont like the way alcohol makes me feel i keep drinking. i drink to fit in. i am so self conscious that i get drunk with my friends just so they will like me. my grades are slipping and im not as close to my mom as i used to be. i wish i could stop drinking and just like myself and not worry about the people who dont like me for me. i need new friends and i need to accept myself for who i am.