Thursday 24th April 2014,

A Thousand Friends and Desperately Lonely

I’m standing at Hertz rental car in military fatigues tapping impatiently on the podium. The 90-pound duffle bag full of dirty clothes, weapons holsters, laser sights, and empty gun magazine clips I let slam to the floor to signal to [...]

April 21, 2014 Friendship, Loneliness

The Losing Draft

I had always hated Matt. Well, I guess I should say I always hated people like Matt. When we got taken over by an occupying force, he was the first to raise his hand and go to work for them. [...]

April 18, 2014 God, Grace, hope

The awful fight of loneliness

No one wants to have coffee with me. Let me back up.  My husband and I moved in January to a new house in a suburb between Dallas and Fort Worth, and I’ve been fighting loneliness.  Our families are both [...]

April 17, 2014 Blog, Faith, Friendship, Grace, Women

The End is a New Beginning

My father was murdered on November 15th, 2012. The man who murdered him (or maybe “killer” if you prefer) woke up one day and decided he was going to take someone’s life whether or not that person had a family. [...]

April 14, 2014 Grief, Healing, Recovery


Standing rigid on pews creaking within my chest, I’ve got a choir of robed urchins squealing stale hymns about the books I should like, who I should admire, who I ought to be, and who should admire me. Hijackers in [...]

April 11, 2014 Acceptance, Special Guest, Struggles

The Attack of Anxiety

I remember the feeling all to well. My chest felt so tight. I could hear my heart beating, it seemed overwhelmingly loud, my mind was swirling. I began to feel flush. What on earth is happening to my body? I [...]

April 10, 2014 Anxiety, Insecurity, Suffering

Understanding Men and Demanding More of Them

“I’m never going to find myself a grown-ass man! I’m approaching 30 and still surrounded by children parading around as men. And the good ones always get snatched up immediately….” My friend makes this statement matter-of-factly while staring defiantly at [...]

April 9, 2014 advice, masculinity, Men, Women

The Biggest Lesson I’ve Ever Learned Came Through a Child

This past summer, I was working at a camp counseling young children while parents were in morning and evening chapel. A few weeks into the summer things began to get challenging for me. I hadn’t anticipated the amount of work [...]

April 7, 2014 advice, Doubt, Faith, God

He Loved Me Anyway

“I’m not having fat kids.” This sentence rang through my head each time I ate or put on a swimsuit, and parents don’t lie to their children. I was probably about eight years old when it started, and being that [...]

April 3, 2014 Abuse, God, Healing, hope

What’s the Point of God?

“Oh shit, shit, shit!” My entire car panicked as the lights flashed behind us. One of my friends was on probation, and she was underage. Their hearts sunk to their stomachs and got soaked in scotch and rum. “Guys, j-just [...]

April 2, 2014 Doubt, Faith, God